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Well It’s Full Speed Baby in the Wrong Direction

Every have hours or weeks, or months you feel like this?  To borrow a term from my wife and her knitting friends, they call it “frogging”.  That refers to when you knit row after row after row and suddenly realize that you messed up 20 rows ago and have to rip all those bad rows out (can’t remember why they call it frogging but I am sure someone will let me know) and start over before the place that had the error.

Anyone else love reading lyrics?  I could do a blog post centering around just about any song I like once I read the lyrics.  It makes me wonder what the artist was thinking at the time, where they are in their own life, what meaning they wanted their listeners to take away from the song and so on.  This line (well it’s full speed baby, in the wrong direction) came from a song called Mary Jane by Alanis Morisette.  It got me thinking about many different things in my own life like my family, friends, work, faith… and what direction I am going in each.  What areas do I neglect, and which ones am I just totally going in the wrong direction and how do I recognize those areas before to much damage has been done (i.e. time wasted).

Deborah Fillmer

Time wasted has to be the enemy’s biggest weapon.  Occupying our time with worthless and meaningless things so we can accomplish nothing of significance is just what (to me) wastes the most precious resource God has given us.  How much time do we spend doing things we don’t need to be doing, or that doesn’t make any difference?  Unfortunately we can’t just spend our time doing nothing but meaningful things.  We have to do the mundane and repetitions of life, but sometimes we can just feel time wasting away for no good reason.

The photo I took of Deb above is one where we spent time together creating a memory.  I don’t remember what in the world I was doing before or after that, something on the computer I am sure, but spending time with your spouse is (usually, haha) never wasted time.

Encounter Intensifies as Reality of Faith in a Savior is Made Real

Encounter Live from Auburn UniversityLast night, Encounter was intense to say the least.  It was hard hitting truth and was very powerful.  I can’t speak for last year, but this week was probably the most intense gathering this year, and many students were moved by the events of the evening.  To me, it seemed like a very vertical night, lifting straight up to God the few hours of worship, study, and music.  It was that way with the photos I took last night as well.

For some reason I took a good percentage of vertical images last night and in keeping with the theme, all the images below are vertically oriented this time.  To see the entire shoot from last night please visit the Grace Campus Ministry with Encounter gallery [the full set of images should be uploaded by 12-1pm today].  On a side note, I did finally get to meet an online friend of mine, Stephen DeVries, who had just returned from a documentary trip to Haiti.  It was great to meet you Stephen, I hope we can get together again real soon.

So what made last night more intense than other nights?  I think it was just the atmosphere of the week.  Grace showed a moving video about a boy named Eliot (see Creative Chaos 28 // Dear Eliot Video, 99 Balloons, and Brave Parents), and half the people in the room were moved to tears.  After some scripture, Matt Dean (seen below) told the story and testimony of Cindy Wall who passed away on Wednesday.  Cindy worked in the Auburn Athletics department as a trainer for 17 years, and it wasn’t until Matt started telling the story again did I realize that some on campus probably knew who she was, but may not have known the whole story.  I took the image above of Matt speaking about her life’s most wonderful testimony.

Encounter Live from Auburn University

Encounter Live from Auburn University

Encounter Live from Auburn University

Encounter Live from Auburn University

Encounter Live from Auburn University

The image you see on the screen in the upper left was one I took the night of her baptism.  She has such pure joy on her face, and I had seen the photo many times before, yet it wasn’t until I looked at the image on the screen and heard the reaction from the students that it hit me.  She was here and gone in my life in a blink of an eye and her life was now a testimony of faith to these students, who were now grieving.

Life is not always fun and games (although I try to make it that way) and there are needed nights like this to show real examples of living faith, to students who may not have a direction or a faith in Jesus.  The difference in life and death, and the faith, hope, and love of Jesus could be found and felt last night.  It had nothing to do with the video, the photo, the music, or the people involved, but the presence of the Lord in the house.

Creative Chaos 28 // Dear Eliot Video, 99 Balloons, and Brave Parents

creative chaosThis is my post for Creative Chaos // 28 (see also guidelines) over at Ragamuffin Soul for this week (which isn’t published quite yet over there but will be soon). If you haven’t participated in Creative Chaos yet there is always time to jump in.  It is a great tool to learn some of the new and innovative ways other churches and groups are being creative in their faith.  Even if you don’t post, just reading through a few of them is a real eye opener of what is done around the country and world in worship.

I am a little late for this video, it has been going around the Internet as of late, but I thought there might be a few of my readers that hadn’t actually seen it yet.  I watched it again for about the fourth time as it was shown to the students at Auburn for Encounter last night.  It hit me again when talking to a friend of mine at Encounter before the music started when he asked me if I had a son?  How old is he, where does he live, what does he do.  Thanks for asking Matt, I do, his name is Bryan, and his son’s name is William and he just turned three years old a few days ago (HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAM).

99 Balloons // Dear Eliot Video

The first time I watched 99 balloons was with my good friend b/ in the middle of a busy day when Jack posted about it on his blog.  I couldn’t really comprehend it’s worth at the time (although it did bring b/ to tears).  It has been that kind of week this week and this video really goes right along with the testimony of our friend Cindy Wall but told by a 3 month old baby born with a condition called Trisomy 18 called Eliot Hartman Mooney.  The name of the video is called 99 Balloons and is narrated by a father who marks off each day as it begins on video with “Dear Eliot”.

Bryan Fillmer in Colorado

Bryan, William, and Sara Fillmer

I am using it for my creative chaos post because the parents of Eliot chose to show the world how much they love their son, in the most creative way, with a really cool video and some photos.  It reminded me of my son Bryan with his son William (shown above) who just turned three a few days ago.  William is the coolest three year old in the world and I know if you ask his daddy he would tell you the same thing.

There is much joy in this video, especially shown through the parents, because the Lord was part of the parents life in a very meaningful way… but today, it is my creative chaos post.

The Death Clock Says I Have Until Thursday, October 6, 2067

This is, according to the Death Clock, the date of my demise. Scott’s is Friday, September 9, 2044. Optimism pays off again. =0)